There's a certain image I wish to upkeep.
Fearless, nonchalant.
However, my foundations are getting shattered day by day, threatening to crumble and fall. In this game of reality, there's only me and other innocent parties left. Everyone involved changed their phone numbers and ran away from life whereas I refused to.
Why should I give in to people I have no connections with? Just because they are causing a nuisance to my life? Causing a nuisance to others' lives? It takes so much more than that for me to give up my identity.
Everyone could do it but I have too much at stake to give up my life for a future of isolation, seclusion and solitude.
I can't do that anymore.
I have a life now, I have friends now, I have school and an impending job now.
I can't lose them when I've only just grown into the world.
But I'm getting fearful. They're starting to scare me.
How dare they make me afraid.
It'll be so easy, too easy to just leave and severe all ties. Although the fact that I'll be looked at like a pariah afterwards does not settle well with me.
I'm really at a loss. I don't know what to do.
