"You don't know the real definition of that phrase."
"You don't know what real frustration is."
No, I don't. I don't know anything because you don't try to know and neither do you know the real anything. Who actually does? What is the real definition and feeling of anything? Does anybody know?
I thought things are interpreted differently with everyone? If you say that to me, can I say the same thing to you? Because I am sure that you also do not know the real definition of that phrase, the real feeling of frustration. You know why? Cause there will always be someone having it worse, there will always be someone who knows their definition of 'real' is what it is.
So the 'real' for me at 20 years old is as legitimate as your 'real' at 57. Don't downplay my feelings just because I'm younger than you. There's a 10 year old living in a war torn country. I'm sure their 'real' is more than ours. Stop making age a benchmark for being 'mature'. Don't tell me things like 'You think you're mature but you have not felt real desperation." "You don't know what real anger and frustration feels like."
If I get cut off from trying to explain my feelings, I get frustrated but I am able to brush it off. But when I try to explain and I get belittled, when I try so hard but I have to give up and agree with you because I don't want to be not filial, when the words exiting my mouth sound calm, nonchalant but the almost unbearable thundering in my heart almost made me stutter, I am not able to.
Stop it.
My self-worth is the only thing I have.
Stop taking it away from me.
