170326: Thoughts

I am so sick of negativity. I am tired of fighting back, of unnecessary comebacks, and constant pent up anger at the mistreatment of others. I am sick of people being pushovers, of being pretentious and “savage” when all they’re being is rude and disgusting. I hate how everything must be done together now because we’re a family and it’s always an utter failure because of fire going against each other and the mediator, water, ending up hurt in the crossfires. There’s so many ways this could turn out to be utter catastrophe and the lines I’ve carefully mapped out to know my limits are dangerously blurring from the constant erasing and adjusting.