As the title has stated, I am going to be participating in NaNoWriMo! *scatters confetti*
I am so excited, you have no idea. I also (somehow) convinced my cousin to join since she's been putting off her writing for years. We're going to back each other up, I can already tell. Woohoo.
What made me join? To be quite honest, it was impromptu. I checked out the site only a couple of times and decided to hell, let's go for it. I've been feeling really discouraged and demotivated recently from like, issues with myself (when is it not? -_-) and my mom reminded me that my strength has always been writing. She said that when I was younger, I used to take my frustrations out on school essays and I was always graded really well on them. Like, near-perfect well. I've always been big on reading, so I guess that's where my flair for words came from.
And I had forgotten all that.
I had forgotten how my teachers were really supportive of my writing, asking me to write for school newsletters, printing out my work to share with the rest of the class and just being big fans. My English teacher usually err in his marking for my narratives because he was so caught up in the story line. He said he feels depressed after reading my stories (cause that's all i write. sad stories) but he was so into it, he wants to read more.
Now, I seem like I'm bragging and I might be but just because I was so proud of myself. After years of being put down and let down, I had a venue to voice out my thoughts. To take snippets of my life stories and have my characters act them out the way I wanted them to. I made sure they solved the problem and not sweep it under the rug like I did.
Once I left secondary school, everything went downhill. I was in a course that had no need for my language. Though I was speaking a language alright; engineering language.
State six components of the Seawater System. Explain why Freshwater is used for cooling instead of Seawater. Calculate the voltage in the circuit. Types of cooling lubricants. The components of a diesel engine.
See? Engineering language. Marine, to be specific.
I'm sure it's possible to balance out writing as your hobby and studying something totally different. It has been done. However, my mind is not compartmentalized enough to do that. I get distracted by my writing while in school, I get distracted by school while writing and the fact that they're of two entirely different contents does not help.
I asked my mom last night,
"Is it possible to write 50k words in a month?"
and she replied,
"You used to get into trouble in school for writing 3000 words on your essays when the maximum word count was 1500. It's definitely possible for you."
So here I am, hoping to return to my roots and somehow balancing my wayward school life (and grades //sobs//) while at the same time, try to not completely lose my sanity at the end of it all.
